Dearest Uncle Santa

 

First of all, a big Thank you for setting up E mail cause I really hate writing letters cause my spelling is bad and my writing is messy.

 

I know this is a bit late. But what to do, with my exams approaching, I have been sleeping so much these days, that it doesn’t leave me with much time to do anything else. I know even you must be busy. So it’s ok if you attend to my list at the very end, because I’m sure it will be the longest.

Thank you so much for all the joy, happiness and love you brought me this year. I appreciate it. But I’m still waiting for that puppy I asked for last Christmas.

I know you must be having a tough time dealing with the whole recession thing. So it’s not a problem, you can include it in this year’s list.

 

This year, I have been such a good girl that my mommy, daddy, and brother think that I should be the angel on top of the tree.

 

Because a lot of gifts are expensive, I have volunteered to contribute part of my savings to make it easier for you to get me the presents, since you have so many gifts to buy for all the other children.

 

This year I WANT the following things:-

 

1)       World Piece.

2)      I will like to have snow in my country. Our country does not have snow. It has a lot of sand.

3)      Edward Cullen.

4)      Burning of all those dutty books labelled engineering.

5)      The wardrobe of that princess girl in Devil Wears Prada complete with jimmy choos and manolo blahniks and Chanel handbags.

6)      Molten chocolate cake at the canteen.

7)      Longer and prettier hair.

8)      To not loose my temper and say hurtful things when I get angry.

9)      That helicopter so that I don’t get stuck in traffic jams, on my way to dubai.

10)   A big box of chocolates, preferably with nuts, and not to put on weight when I eat them.

11)    I am not a selfish person. For al my friends:

a)      The thin ones: Fried Cheese and fattening food. Lots of it.

b)      The nerdy ones: Make them know the working of the Grade Point Average (GPA). If everyone gets 2 mark 0 marks then everyone gets an A. How hard is that to understand! Or you could just gift them DEATH if they don’t realize that the purpose of life is not to learn how it rains, but to jump in those little pools of water and dirty your clothes

c)      Obama: Anything but George Bush’s brain.

d)      Ted Mosby’s Children: The episode where their father finally meets their mother.

e)      Bollywood: Originality.

f)      Jennifer Aniston: to wear some clothes. She looks good otherwise also.

Robert Pattinson, Brad Pitt, Chad Michael Murray, James Lafferty, Chace Crawford: to shed some.

       

g)      Serena van der woodsen and Blair Waldorf: to share their clothes with me.

 

h)      It would be lovely if you could send a big sack of grownup presents for my grandparents.

 

i)        Please bring presents to all the kids, especially the poor ones who have not even one toy. I don’t think it would be a very merry Christmas if poor kids didn't get anything!! I understand, if u can’t, I’ll share a few of mine with them.

j)       Ekta Shah: a super-cute boyfriend. And a stalker repelling device.

k)      And Akash:

Loads of TV shows to watch.

Many more GQ covers, just in case one is not enough.

Lot of bhav from his girlfriend’s side.

Lots of kisses on behalf of her, from Rudolf.

A big thank you for putting up with all my bullshit.

Lots and lots of love. Your share and mine too.

Faith in long lasting love and togetherness.

l)        For all of us: Good Grades

m)     For some people I wouldn’t want to name: A life.

n)      Aditi:  Hugs and kisses. And lots of psp games to play. And a visit from me soon enough.

 

 

                         

 

I absolutely love Christmas because it’s a time for everyone to be happy, although mine wasn’t really as great this year. 

I have been a good girl this year but I have had quarrels and even fights with some people and I'm going to try and be better about stopping a fight instead of adding to it.

 

I know I am getting quite old now, but I would be real pleased if you could pay me a little visit. I really don't like being a grown up if it means that you won't visit me anymore.

I really like you even though people say that you’re fat. Being fat doesn't mean that you a bad guy, I mean, fat people have character. You’re the best!

 

Can you ask the reindeer to wear slippers this year so as they don’t wake me up when they land on my roof? 

 

Say hello to the elves!! My mom seen them peeking in the windows to see if I’ve been good.

 

Most of all I wish a good health for me, my family and friends. At last I wish you, dear Santa, your wife and all the reindeer a merry X-mas and a happy NEW YEAR.

 

I love you very much. I hope you have a safe trip. Tell Rudolph that I don't think his nose is funny.

Please use the front door, we do not have a chimney. 

 

Please call my daddy for directions if you don't know where my house is.

 

Hugs,

Rhea

 

p.s. Even though I'm really small, I'm big on being good.

P.p.s If my brother been bad, do I get all his gifts? In that case get him lots of stuff toys.

There comes a time that every life goes off-course, in this desperate moment, who would you be…?

The person you thought you are or something different? Perhaps come out as a better individual under pressure, or worse?
When your life goes off-course, the only way left is always a crossroad, between good and bad, happiness or sorrow, it is here hat we find out whether are ethics are stronger than our emotions, because the right path may not always bring happiness with you while the wrong may seem right after all. It is on these crossroads that our life really takes shape, because these choices almost always alter the course of our life.

Mostly when we make a choice, its for our good, but sometimes we are forced to do things cause of our conscience, like calling someone just cause you know that’ll make them happy, or realizing its just leading them on something that makes them picture you together when that’s actually not what you want, but what they want. I know this sounds horribly complicated but it happens all the times, you are forced to lie just to make someone happy, and to justify it, its always said that a lie is always preferable to truth if it makes someone feel better. But can’t we see that in the course of lying just to make others happy, we stress ourselves and that’s definitely not what anyone’d want right, cause in today’s world stress leads to tension and to depression. And that is too dangerous to have, in my opinion. 

So I guess that whether or not we should make better choices for ourselves really depends on what the situation and the time really demands, and you can’t really decide in advance what you’re going to do. And when you make that choice, it’ll always come with a bunch of what if’s. 

Choosing the right path in your life is not always as easy as it seems, but its better than doing something you might regret and carry the guilt all your life. Because regret and guilt aren’t the kind of burdens you’d want to carry around. The best way is to follow your heart but be in sync with your mind as well. 

They say that someone always finds you, when you need him the most. That he would understand you fully, and would be made for you. That when he comes, your deepest troubles would disappear, your regret would go away, and you, you would start feeling whole again. I know a lot of you might be thinking that this is so lame and it’s the teenage hormones that are talking, but lotsa people think that, even if they don’t wanna admit it..!

It is always easier to ignore the pain, forget it, or just plainly overlook it as a minor defect that just can’t be repaired, but then, I’ve always chosen to feel it, always made it a part of my life, and always lived with it until I sorted it out or it did itself. I guess that’s what makes me different, because all my friends belong to the other category, or the friends I thought I had until they made a joke of me. Its so easy to feel that your being singled out for this treatment, but when you see others handling the same problems you have with an almost carefree ease, it just kind of gets to you. That is what confirms to you that god has made you different, and that you now have no choice but to live with it. And wait, and wait, and wait for that perfect day everyone around you seems to have every single day, to be truly happy and content with your life, and to be at peace with yourself. For surely destiny would have that day for me, when all the people I care about would actually care back and that would be the day when I would smile, not for an obligation, not for anyone else but just for me, savoring the fact that I have something to truly smile about at last, and smile because I want to, not for anyone else and that all of them would smile back. That would be my perfect day.

I used to think that I was this manic depressive, you know just being depressed because I knew no other way of survival, but I’ve found out that its wrong. I can go on numerous shopping sprees, buy absolutely useless things and blow up money, but all that’s because I have to look for that happiness somewhere else, I have to fill that gaping hole in my life that people leave behind when they leave me. Or maybe cause I want everyone to like me, to love me, and maybe if not for what I am but for what I wear or what I say, whatever. But everybody always leaves. Maybe not physically, for I might see them everyday but they might never really care for me anymore, and for me that’s like being on a deserted island in your own house. You just can’t get that sense of comfort or safety that you want and end up being lonely. You just don’t feel at home. 

But It’s Time To Face The Truth.

Moments.

Life passes with time and time passes in moments. Moments which, rushing past us, define the path of a life even as they fix upon its end. 

How rarely do we stop to examine that path? To see the reasons why all things happen. To consider whether the path we have taken is of our own making, or simply one into which we've drifted with eyes closed. 

But what if we were to stop? To take stock of each precious moment before it passes? Might we see the endless forks in the roads that shape our lives? And... seeing the choices we've made... choose another path?

You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love.

But then, do not the most moving moments of our lives find us without words?

Sooner or later we all discover that the big moments in life are not the advertised ones, not the birthdays, the graduations, the weddings, not the great goals achieved. 

The real milestones are less prepossessing. They come to the door of memory unannounced, stray dogs that amble in, sniff around a bit and simply never leave. 

Our lives are measured by these.

WHY?????

This is me, with a vengeance. It's just that I feel like throttling some people by their necks right now, but I unfortunately cant! So I want to vent out my feelings here, and hope that I can get it out of my system that way.

I know I am going to regret this post as soon as I publish it, but I am past caring right now. And I know this is not a very MATURED or "evolved" mind talking here, but what the hell - this certainly qualifies as RANDOM, to put it mildly!

The thing that I don't understand is, why don’t  some people get the HINT? And probably get a LIFE too in the process, if it's not too much trouble? OR, at least try and RESPECT the fact that other people DO have lives of their own, thank you very much!

  

WHY can’t certain people just deal with their own fucked up lives, and stop creating a mess in others’? Stop interfering that’s all, is that too much to ask for?

 

 WHY don’t people consider other people’s feelings for even a fraction of a second, before doing anything?

  

WHY is life something that gives you a little taste of happiness n makes you greedy for it all...and just when you’ve got it...it snatches it all back!!

  

WHY is it that sometimes when we are really depressed something comes our way and makes life worthwhile...we finally think yes we can be happy...finally something!...finally someone!...someone who understands us....wants us!

And the moment you realise their worth...they forget yours!!...

WHY  is it that sometimes a person we’ve hardly known becomes so much more important than people we’ve known forever!!

 

WHY do people come into our lives, give us hope, and then suddenly realise that the hope they were giving us was false in the first place, and turn back thinking they would hurt us!!...why don’t they get it!!...the damage is done!!....its your turning back that will hurt, not your going forward!!...we are ready to face what happens later!!..but NOW is not the time!!...it will break us!!

WHY  why why??? why do people come into our lives if they have to go away???...weren’t there enough people to cry for already??


WHY does the fear of breaking our heart make people actually break it??


WHY do we spend so much time thinking about people who don’t care about us, that we over look the people who do care!!

WHY do people who mean the world to you, suddenly disappear..? Why? Because they have their very—own—brand—new life now..?

  

AND WHY do we have to do something this stupid to let our feelings out??? why cant we just directly tell people what we feel???....maybe ‘cause it will take them further away from us!!... :(
But wont reading this(ever) do the same?? :-\

 

The question I ask is WHY??? Not just "why me", but "why anybody"!!! But yeah, I am basically interested in the "why ME" part of it, because I really think that over the years, God has had MORE than enough of his share of laughs at my expense, but He just doesn't seem to be CONTENT!

 So here I am - a helpless, hapless, miserable, oppressed and long-suffering victim in the hands of The Almighty (or maybe The Devil had something to do with it! Ah me!)

 Signing Out,

Stil Suuper Pissed..!

But happily heading off to Dandiya. 

 

 

 

THE TWO TRAGEDIES IN LIFE

George Bernard Shaw once wrote;

'There are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it.'

 

As far as I’m concerned, Shaw was wrong.

 

'Cause you know what? Tragedies happen. 

What're you going to do, give up? 

Quit? 

No.

I realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. 'Cause you are, and that pain you feel: it's life. The confusion and fear.. that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better. And that something is worth fighting for.

 

This year, I almost got everything I wanted and everything I wished for.. but, in a way, in the end I lost even more. I lost what I already had, and also what I had just begun to live for.

 

And in the end it all hurts just the same.

 

…to be contd

May

Here are the rules:

1. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
2. Pick your month of birth.
3. Highlight the traits that apply to you.

May


I think I am:
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Strong-willed and highly motivated.
Easily angered.
Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally.
Firm Standpoint.
Easily consoled.
Systematic (left brain).
Loves to dream.
Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck.
Good imagination.
Loves traveling.
Dislike being at home.
Restless.
High spirited.
Spendthrift.


And I am not:
Sharp thoughts.
Attracts others and loves attention.
Needs no motivation.
Strong clairvoyance.
Good physical.
Weak breathing.
Loves literature and the arts.
Not having many children.
Hardworking.

The Twelve Months

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.


FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.


MARCH: Attractive personality ( Ehem) Sexy (Ehem) Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.Revengeful - Mmm,Nah! Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.Nah! Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody. BINGO!!! Most of these traits are true for me .


APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.


MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.


JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.


JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.


AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.


SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.


OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.


NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

My Japanese Names

For the instructions, add your name on the list and simply spell out your name using the given Japanese letter- translations below.

TRANSLATION:

TRANSLATION:
A-ka G-ji M-rin S-ari Y-fu
B-tu H-ri N-to T-chi Z-zi
C-mi I-ki O-mo U-do
D-te J-zu P-no V-ru
E-ku K-me Q-ke W-mei
F-lu L-ta R-shi X-na

1) ADITI - katekichiki

2) AKASH - kamekaariri

3) KHUSHBOO - meridoariritumomo( it does sound like hindi u knw..it goes like meri-do-a-ri-ri-tu-momo)

4) TUSHAR - chidoaririkashi(this one is hilarious.. i ll call u chido now tushi..=P)

5) PALLAV - nokatatakaru

6) PRANAV - noshikatokaru(sounds like brothers..Those Samurai brothers..)

7) SHIKHA - aririkirika

8) RITWIKA - shikichimeikimeka(haha.. the weirdest so far..!)

I Write..

I’m thinking about:
I have work tomorrow. Again. That means 5 hours of sleep less in the morning. Plus I’ll put on weight because I eat like a pig in the break just cos I’m bored.
What happened to that particular murder case.
I am also thinking otherwise about Why it is so tough for us to just be and let be.
And I’m also wondering whats for dinner.

I want to:
Be free to do everything that my heart tells me to do.
Go to Rome, Paris and Egypt.
Spend a few months at some hill station. Enjoy the peace and quiet.
Avoid certain changes in life, in the future.
Not be a lazy bum and go to the gym.


I wish:
I was clear in my thinking and knew myself better.
I could spend another day in school just like old times.


I hear:
The waves between my ears every time there is absolute silence outside.
The ticking of this tiny little clock.


I wonder:
If there is a person in the world who is absolutely contented with their life.
For how long I will be missed when I am gone forever.


I regret:
Not leaving for India earlier than I am.


I am:
A sentimental fool.
An incorrigible optimist.


I dance:
Because it gives me a kick.
At random times.
When I am alone.


I sing:
When I drive.
When I am happy.
When I’m bored, I just hum.
Theres no specific time.

I cry:
Easily. Atleast I used to.
And quite unexpectedly.
And quite unreasonably.


I’m not always:
Guided by my head.
Easy to understand.


I make with my hands:
Mostly a lot of mess.


I write:
My blog.
Mails.
I used to write Diary entries.


I confuse:
Can never remember the gender of nouns. Specially in hindi.


I need:
To love, to have friends, music, books.
To go shopping and eat out.
Enough money for the last two.


And finally:
This is a tough exercise if you want to be honest and precise.
I am not sure if anyone else is interested in these details about me but I could think of nothing better to do, and so here they are.