The Memories.. Back in Delhi..

College..Season 1

20 Things I Want To Do Before I Die:

*1 Skydive.

*2 Watch the launch of a space shuttle.

*3 Spend a whole day eating junk food without feeling guilty.

*4 Act as an extra in a film.

*5 Tell someone the story of my life, sparing no details.

*6 Buy a round-the-world air ticket and a rucksack, and run away.

*7 Learn not to say yes when i really mean no.

*8 Write a fan letter to my all-time favorite hero.

*9 Learn to ballroom dance properly.

*10 Fall deeply in love -- helplessly and unconditionally. The kind of love that lasts.

*11 Shower in a waterfall.

*12 Learn to play a musical instrument with some degree of skill.

*13 Spend New Year's in an exotic location.

*14 Get passionate about a cause and spend time helping it, instead of just thinking about it.

*15 Sleep under the stars.

*16 Take a ride on the highest roller coaster in the country.

*17 Spend three months getting my body into optimum shape.

*18 Drive in a convertible with the top down and music blaring.

*19 Create my Family Tree.

*20 Go to some extremely quiet place like the beach, or a park and spend the evening.

12 Weird Things You Should Know About Me:

#1 I am extremely self conscious. I have low self-esteem, and I can never see, or comprehend, the good others see in me.

#2 When I get nervous I talk A LOT. I can't help it because I don't know what else to say and then just end up making myself look stupid because I get off subject.

#3 I am hard to love. I am very difficult and hard to understand. I can annoy you to no end, or completely piss you off. I will push you away if I think you have had enough, and if you stick around, kudos to you.

#4 I have anger problems. I am always on the edge, and the most insignificant things can take me over. I am easily irritated and annoyed.

#5 I am detached. As hard as I can love, I can hate just as easily, just as much. I have trained myself to be able to let go, and never turn back.

#6 I’m laaaaaaaazy. I’d sit on the internet all day, or watch TV or read books, instead of doing something constructive.

#7 I believe in soul mates....lots of people seem to complete you but only one will...yes, I know that also means I believe in predestiny which is true to a certain extent.

#8 I have a huge fear of failure, or being inadequate. It prevented me from trying so many things in the past. Just being afraid that I won’t be the best, stops me from even attempting

#9 I believe I can save everyone. Seems stupid but honestly everyone needs to be rescued from something. The challenging part is figuring out what.

#10 I don't really take people for their word. I go on what I know about their personality. So you could say I have a trust issue.

#11 I'm not very good at arguing. My thoughts tend not to flow until I remove myself from the situation and have some time to think about it...


#12 I love the thought of being in love. When I get married... I cannot wait! I want to be able to find that one person who will love me for me. Take care of me when I am sick, and laugh at all the little things I do. I also want to be able to take care of my future husband (whoever he is), learn new things, and have a wonderful family..!

I thought i would list out just 10 weird things, but i ended up writing 12 of them, and i can think of many more. So that in itself is very WEIRD..!

I'm Happy in the present..I'm Optimistic...

...about the future, I think that maybe it can all work out.
Maybe these things do happen for a reason.
Maybe everything does fall into place every now and then.
Maybe the hard work and the perseverance does pay off.
Maybe there is a place that is right for me.
Maybe there are new people I can meet who will be great for me.
Maybe I can do all the things I want and not stress so much about things.

I can be a good person.
I can make a difference.
I can be selfless while making a good life for myself.
I can think about other things besides my own issues.
I can. I really can.

And really, thats the only thing I could ever ask for. The hope to know that I can do these things and that things can work out. That is Optimism.
And Optimism, it comes with happiness.

When you’re happy, you’re calm. You Hope. You hope for the good things in life. And that is a part of optimism. Optimism is an outlook on life such that one maintains a view of the world as a positive place. Optimism is hoping for things that make you happy.

It is a cycle.

Tonight, I rest happy. Tired and stressed and busy and uncertain about things... but happy nonetheless. I live for these moments of optimism... I really do.

Get yourselves up and be happy. Be optimistic. Believe them when they say that everything works out fine in the end, if it isn’t fine, then its not the end.
Believe me, I sulked for most of the last year. It doesn't do anything but dig you further into your hole.

Today, I’m happy. And I’m also optimistic.
I’ve had a great day. I’ve been with people I Love. Especially with Someone I Love spending time with. And its been great.

It made me happy. It made me optimistic.

And that's all I have to say about that.

About Me..

*~*I am Me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me.

*~*I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes.

*~*I’m moody, I admit. I’ll be all hyper one minute, and quiet the other.

*~*More than anything i value people. I value relationships.

*~*I'm emotional. And Stubborn, very stubborn.

*~* Yes, I love dressing up. So if you think just because I’m girly, like shopping and all that, I’m that dumb blonde, you’re an idiot.

*~* See, I love Delhi. So I won’t shut up about it. Cuz it’s my favourite place and also has some of my favouritest people in the world.

*~* If you’re my best friend, I’m BOUND to be possessive of you. It’s something I can’t help.

*~*Love at first sight. Happy Marriages. Soulmates. These are concepts i believe in. I know that they exist. Probably not the first one, but the rest. Yes

*~*I'll only like you if you have some substance.

*~*I'll only be sweet to you if you're nice to me.

*~*If i dont know you, I'll judge you.

*~*I'll come across as an arrogant bitch if i dont like you. And its got nothing to do with the ''delhi attitude''..!

*~*I Believe in fairy tales. I believe in Happy Endings.

*~*I'm not very Ambitious. Nor am i very career oriented. Theres more to life.

*~*Yes, I'm social. I speak to many people. Random people. That Does Not give you the right to call me a social butterfly!

*~*I Do care about what other people have to say about me. I cant help it. Its just the way I am.

*~*I do deny certain things. I agree.

*~*I watch chick flicks. I sometimes do read chick lit.

*~*I'm a danceoholic. Any form of dance will do.

*~*I do act retarded at times. I accept it.

*~* So I love taking pictures. Not only of myself, but absolutely anything.

*~*I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.